Kenyataan Perasaan

Trip to Langkawi

5 jun 2008; aku,ayat omar n tengku pi bercuti sakan kat langkawi..riang hati tidak tergambarkan..hahahaha(poyo ayat)Dah lama aku xjumpa dua ketoi tu..

aku p naek flight pagi trus lagkw.malu nak ckp..but that is my 1st time experience naik ke awan biru..(selain mimpi dlm mimpi la)hahaha....xdala excited naek flite but nak jumpa 2 ekoq tu lagi excited kot.smpi terminal, aku sewa keta,viva..sep skit..ya la minyak dah melambung melampau2 rega dia.

ckp pasai minyak aku teringat mlm 4hb jem truk kat KL..dkt 4jam!tensen gila.suma tu pun gara2 semua nak p boh minyak murah.huh,mcm la dah bubuh minyak arini..sampai setahun tank tu penuh..aku xpeduli semua tu.yg aku peduli mlm tu aku mengantuk dan aku nak blk umah pack brg2 utk vacation...yg hangin nya aku try ikut shortcut..lagi teruk jem dia.aku pi menumpang bilik wahida sat..tidoq dekat 3 jam.12lebih baru aku balik umah maklang.pastu pi buh miyak mahai(coz dah lebih 12mlm). sakit hati!!!

eh..smbg cita pasai lgkw, dpt viva aku trus press pedal minyak p cari stesen minyak..uwaaaa...suma tank kosong.minyak abis!gabra dlm ati tp muka aku still relax ja..last2 dpt gak boh to pun queue punya pjg.p jety amek 2 ekoq tu.

Stay kat sinaran motel.budget hotel la..tp bukan motel tuttt.motel ni best.baru lagi.Asa selesa sudahla..ptg tu pi gng mat cincang naek kabel car.silap besaq aku pakai wages(h.heel), sakit kaki aku keranat bukit..kesan dia kaki,lutut,pinggang aku sakit.nasib baik tak terpeleot ja kaki.sakit aku xkisah lagi tp malu tu aku plg xtahan..ahahhaa

esok pi island hoping.naek bot pi 3 pulau.P tasik dyg bunting..aku takut nak mandi sbb takut terBUNTING ahhahaha..hani sorang ja mandi.aku main2 ayaq ngn kaki ja.sampai pulau beras basah baru aku mandi..SUNBURNNNN!!

okla...nnt aku smbg cita laen..nak pi mkn sat

kerjalah..kerjalahh..kerja!

Salam..

dah lama rasanya xblogging
usia makin meningkat, masa makin cepat, kerja makin byk...tanggungjwb makin berat.Itulah sebab dah lama xpost apa2 story kat cni.

1 April-->bukan April Fool lagi.i am officially employed (again) as environMENTAL Consultant di DSA Environmental kat Subang Jaya.

Ramai yang tanya, apa post aku kat cni.Jawapan aku -->Aku pun tatau apa post aku kat cni,kdg2 kad tulis env officer,kdg2 env engineer..lantaklah.itu semua tak penting as long as aku tau apa yg aku buat & aku buat benda yang aku sgt2 minat.

Ramai yang tanya,best ka keja situ?common question dari sahabat2 & sedara jauh dan dekat..mcmana aku nak ckp eh.kdg2 best kdg2 hampeh..biasala tp yg aku tau keja aku ni mmg sinonim dengan keMENTALan..itu aku sgt PASTI!huhuhu.

Kawan2 bermata DUITAN pasti akan tanya psal gaji..Gaji?bole la..byk lagi gaji masa kat Dungun dulu.tp xkisahla semua tu xpenting (xpenting ka??hahahaha) Byk mana pun gaji aku..tgh bulan aku pasti sengkek jugak.

Environment keja?boleh tahan.best pun sbb kwn2 byk support.tp BOS???huhu namapun bigBOS..

Weekend aku pi upm.wat master in env engineering..ramai yg tanya xpenat ka?mmgla sgt penat tp hidup mesti diteruskan,kan?..aku ada target yang belum tercapai.so, kena struggle utk capai target tersebut.kena habiskan master b4 umur 25..

byk target aku sebelum smp umo 25 ni..byk yg tanya aku target ang b4 25?...aku pasti menjwb master salah satunya.and satu lagi aku nak kawin..kahkahkah..(sapa gelak aku sepak)

bZ life..hu2~

da makin bz..rasa makin tua..
tp matang?xlagi kot

to do or not to do

tensennya,jiwa xtenang..
why~why?
i dunno what should i do now instead of studying,lepaking,visiting
seem that i hv lose myself for 23years
ah,really hate this feeling
Oh tuhan,please save me...

betoi2 mood swing lah this week
dpt lak mimpi2 buruk ja ..bgn pagi pun xhepi dah
xmcm dulu2...life skg more complicated
mcm dah xada sinar harapan..
apa yg aku cari,aku sendiri pun xtau
ya Allah...
rasa mcm nak menangis..but but & but........

over-saturated?

officially going back to hostel life on 29th jan 2008. Finally,my application for hostel room in kolej ke2 was approved..after going through soo many 'ngenyah' procedure & systems that make my head spining around..really!!

even though baru je tinggalkan ogy n ayen not even 1 day.. at sg besi tu,but my heart keep looking of them..really miss u guys.

tired?im sick of mentioning this ..again and again..*yawning*dah la arini terkena penyakit sakit perut lak..ahh..

btw,i've got a very sweet rumet taking edu. sc(physics)..hope can going through this hostel life with her n her best fren,ila.

chow dulu..pi makan sat

thurs:1.05pm

bosan3!!
asemen xsiap lagi..malasnya..
but have to finish it today
tomorow got things to do
next week is test-week..gonna crazy of these tension stuffs!
asemen+test+presentation..
huh,student life=not enjoyable moment anymore for me
i am 23rd..maybe i should go for working life..
confuse again!

dayah, take all the risk while enjoy the moment n learn new things..be careful of making decision.
so,make it simple..enjoy!by the way tawakal to Allah,the Greatest power is a must

Cintaku Tertinggal di Usm

Selamat tinggal 2007 & welcome 2008

2007 yang plg byk menguji aku menempuh alam kehidupan yang penuh mencabar ini..2007.ada yang best ada gak yang ala2 nitemare..

skg dah msk upm serdang,wat master.ntahla.baru lagi malas nak comment..

huh,tiba2 rasa badmood lak..chow dulu.(serabut btul aku skg ni..)

usm..aku riiindu kau..=(

rempah ratus kehidupan...

1 dec 2007..i felt lost..dpli xlepas..rasa mcm the end of the world dah..susah hati sgt2
Aku tepaksa la teruskan EO yang mcm ..... xtau nak kata pa.bukan sbb keja susah or apa.ala-ala, gajah sama gajah kelahi,aku pelanduk mati di tengah2...itulah perumpamaannya..kalau aku teruskan pun still unknown status.ikut nasib je.igt kalau dpt la dpli tu, leh la jd cegu pon okla.sekali xdpt la plak.tu yg sedey sgttttt

esoknya, dapat plak offer cont master degree(environmental eng) kat upm,daftar 17 dec.haih lagi pening..

ahad,nak gi interview keja kat alor star.clinical waste management company utk alor star..hope dptla..gaji pon harap2 okla.

so,wut to do?if we have a lots of options but still xmenepati
am i soo ungrateful person?owh i dunno..
wut will u choose,a job with higher paying but damn worst condition
or
a job with less paying and the condition so-so
or
jobless but gaining the knowledges about almost 1  year??

education or experience..?
education=experience,vice versa

tido dulu.pening memikir*yawning*
**susah2 kawen la senang..tp calon xdak la plak..ahaha

=)

Got up this morning at 4:00 am. What the heck is going on? But I feel good. Clear headed. Normal. Got to work before 7:30 am..

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And trust me. I am not happy about it

Just because I feel better doesn't mean I am better

My real job now begins. I have to find land and build a life.

I suppose that's why I still feel as if I am depressed. But I don't think I am really. I've using the term "shell shocked" and it probably is still a good terminology. Until I find a focus on what to do next I'm going to remain floating.

Of course I'm being lazy about doing anything, but I'm still nervous about how I feel (will I remain feeling stable?) and I am distinctly nervous about making any sweeping decisions about my life given the way I feel.

I suspect if I had a spouse, they would have become annoyed with my wishy-washy attitude. My parents are beginning to think I am being tiresome.

I've been making lists of the things I can do, and the things I want to do. I have followed my feelings and that of others and aimed high. But at the same time, it is still difficult visualising myself doing these things. The wounds of the last decade have taken their toll and are manifesting as fears of competence and, well, just fears. I am having a great problem just starting...

so,anybody can help me? =(